When reality and fantasy don't mix well.

With that small brain that we are all given with, I bet all of us have this perfect life that we have created inside it. I did create one, I still have it inside my brain but I know, all I can do is imagine, plan and pray that it all goes according to plan. My definition of a perfect life doesn't mean that I go through it with no obstacles but I hope to face those obstacles and make it on time for the next plan that I have made ahead. A concept that is hard to comprehend? Yes, but I bet some people do get the gist of what I am saying. 

Lately, the topic about who do you want to be after you graduate has been lingering on every one's mind. Of course. You can't run away from this topic. You can delay it, by saying you're going to further your study again, by taking professional papers and such but when you're done with it, aren't you suppose to face the reality and start to think about your career? Unless, you're from a well-off family, money is no problem, and your parents are willing to support you till the day you die. But for most of us, we don't get that kind of privilege. Cold hard fact about reality. I don't hate auditors. That's a fact. Do I admire them? I do. Do I want to be like them? I do. Do I have the guts/courage/strength/such characteristic for me to even think that I can be one? I don't think so. Do I want to be a banker? I kinda like the idea of me being one. A businesswoman? Yea, I've been toying with the idea for a while. I want to work with a telco company right? Or any GLCs? Well, am I even qualified enough to be accepted in that society?  With all these question in mind, I think I should just continue with my professional papers.

This topic sucks. Of course. But  at the end of the day, I guess its just about who will accept you in their firm. I can tell you my ambition, my career path that I have planned out in detail but what if the company that I want to work with rejects me? So, my back up plan is to go back to my previous internship company but what if, they doesn't want me there? Oh my, I wonder where is my instinct at times when I need it. So, at the end of the day, its not so much about what you want isn't it, but its about what you'll get.

Just like in choosing a guy. You can list down all the physical characteristics, social attributes and personal skills that you want but when the right guy comes along, all you can do is just cross everything off from the list. I like guys with facial hair, straight hair, speaks good English, fair, dark features, jaw line, not calculative, someone that will be approved by my mother but then...... I don't think the guy that I like has any of these characteristics except...... but yea, the list is out of the window. Erm, this is out of the topic isn't it? Is it even related? Hahaha.

I was just in the mood to write. So, might as well put everything in one post. Sakit otak pikir pasal masa depan. Especially uncertain future. At least its something that you can work on.. Improve yourself. Oh, time to hit the books. Minggu depan exam. Haha. 

Be there, be here.

Sometimes when a friend needs to talk to you, she just wants to talk. Sure, some would want you to voice out your opinion on that matter but most of the time, if she doesn't ask for it, then she just wants you to listen to it. She just wants you to lend her your shoulder just in case, she needs to cry. Sometimes, by you saying something you may be provoking it. Maybe. Don't say hurtful things just to get even. Have some mercy. I'm just saying.

She's very beautiful.

One says go North,
One says go East.
I am going up.

October, you were awesome last year.

So many things to say, I have no idea where to start. So, I guess by posting this picture, I can summarize things up. So, its obvious now that I fancy guys with a little bit of facial hair. Just some facial hair. Not body/chest hair. So, I think I should start writing serious matter now. So, I'll move on to the next paragraph now. 

One month into my final semester, things have been moving awkwardly slow. Other classes are complaining how busy they are and we can still run to the cinemas and karaoke lounges for some movies and singing actions.  I guess it is how you manage your time. Kekeke. Or maybe not. It all depends on which lecturer do you get this semester. As for now, I am thankful for the timetable and the lecturers that we got for our classes, except of course, for one particular lecturer that teaches one of our core paper *cough killer paper cough*.

And oh! The most important thing that I would to share here is...... the lifts at the Faculty are mostly under maintenance, hence the morning-stairs-climbing activity in order for you to get to class on time. It's a good cardiovascular exercise I reckon but frankly, if one wants to do it, one would have done it with a proper attire like sweat pants and sports shoes. Not slippers, cardigans and 7.9kilograms worth of Audit and Strategic Management colourful and cheerful notes. Oh, you noticed the sarcasm. Pardon myself. I am just annoyed with the fact that I am jumping from reading class to another one but of course, sometimes, the calculator made its appearance and of course, on the days that the calculator is needed, I forgot to bring it to class. Thus, I am still not a satisfied student. 

What else can I complain? Nothing much I guess. Life has been fine, with a few glitches, here and there of course.

Have a good weekend everyone. It's short but it doesn't mean you can't stretch it out :)