Rindu ACD4B.

This is actually my first time studying for my finals without the presence of my close friends and classmates of ACD4B. Yes, ACD and not ACB. ACB is not as fun as ACD.

I MISS YOU GUYS ;(

This would be the normal script each finals :

Lynn : Korang dah study banyak? SAIKO GLEE WEHHH. Aku tak study lagi tu.
Min, lynn tak tipu min. Lynn tido je tadi tu.
*memang dia tak tipu, dia tido tapi somehow, dalam tido tu dia maybe tgh hafal*

Aloyah : Aku tak baca banyak pon, Min. Aku ngantok gle. Ko ada nescafe? Meh aku buatkan. Aku terror buat nescafe sedap.
*urmmm, sedap sgt. haha*

Qaila : Sangat weh. Aku pon tak baca lagi tu.
*Sambil simpul rambut*

Syaza : Aisya, nanti kul 2 kejut eh. Nak tido jap.
* hahahahah*

Aisya : Syaza, nanti kejut kul 2.30 eh.
*hahahaha pelengkap syaza*

Sal : Sal pon tak baca lagi ni, Min. Sal baru tgk cite Korea. Min dah baca ke?
* Sal, sal. Malas cakap. Haha*

Fafa : Ape ape? SEMULA.
* ahahahah sumpah kelakaaaa*

Maryam : Korang dah baca ke? Aku soh bibik aku goreng keropok ngn japgi aku dtg bwk kek
*YAHOOOO! alaa, tp sekarang ni takde kek dah ;(*

Min Amalia : okayy, yang ni rajin. Masa suma org tgh main internet dia dah pegang buku. Takott.

Hannah : Korang, aku nak singgah 7e. Korang nak ape ape tak? Latte ke, Original ke, Red Tea ke?
* dah takde sape nak tanye dah sekarang ni*

Hanis, Pah and Liy jangan cakap laa.
Tulisan besar besar, jawapan nak panjang je, study tak behenti.
So senang la tiru bile finals kan.
Haha.

Imissyouguys,trulyandsometimesIwishthatwedon'thavetoliveoutside.

Have fun studying for MGT and CTU guys.
See you on Sunday ;)
Love you, guys.

Morning Victory

I got the ultimate victory that I have always dreamed of getting.
I achieved it in the sweetest possible way there is, with the guiltiest feeling ever.
At the time that I achieved it, I felt like I was on top of the world
but when all the hype died down, I kept on pondering what happens next if I were to get the trophy?
Do I really want the trophy?
Do I really need the trophy?
The trophy that once used to be as shiny as it could be, now is just a piece of steel, with no value.
An honest answer to the question would be, I need the trophy more than I want it.
It's just an old trophy that provides nothing but just some awful dust.
Just some dust that leads to a massive mess.
A mess that you just can't clean up with a broom or even a vacuum because the stain refuses to go away and it will stay there, permanently forever.
I don't want the trophy, but at the same time, the feeling of actually owning it feeds my empty soul.
The sight of the trophy used to give me shivers.
The sight of the trophy used to make me wander around, endlessly.
The sight of the trophy made me sick.
The thophy made me less of a human.
Don't worry, the trophy is not mine to be kept.

and I am officially 20.

How should I feel now that I am no longer a teen and has reached 20 years old?

he never fails to cheer me up on my birthday ;)
love you so much adam stoya.

Group photo, as usual.
Haha.

still,

Aliyah, who is always with me, through everything, even though she is miles away in Bangi.
I LOVE YOU!

and

and and and


so yeah, happy 20th birthday jasmin anis.

*sorry guys for bailing out on you guys during the FAR 400.*

thank youuuu for all the wishes!

aihh, gambar gambar sekarang kena tapis dahulu sebelum masuk facebook kerana ibu terchenta sedang active di facebook.

stupidity is a choice.

Yes, it is. I've been through situations where I should fight for it but I choose to stay calm because I know that in the long run the truth will prevail. But it puts me on a bad mood when my best friend has to go through what I went through because of the same person. The same cunning person. I guess they say once a hoe bag, always a hoe bag. Don't hurt my friend will ya? Pick some one from your own league. But then again, bad things do happen to nice people.

What doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger right.

All I am saying is, dear Mr ;U pls take care of your Mrs ;U before she goes around, spreading her love around to some other unnecessary people. TAKE CARE =)

I don't hate you for hurting me, but I hate you for hating others. GOD, I hate you girl, so much and I know that you are loving this. But pls, don't hurt my friend.

Shah Alam-ers.

Hello Muya, Hello Golo,
dia pon nak jugak, si muya ni. haha. she sent us all some love from Istana to Beril.
we miss you too, muya stoya.
haha.

i should be studying now.
there's a quiz on cash flow for far 400
but blogging seems to be more tempting rather than some factual books
on operating, financing and investing activities for some companies.
Beyonce cancelled her ' I am...' tour in Malaysia.
Thanks B.
Told ya, you will always ruin my life ;)
Aihh, now i have to find some other activities before finals start.
Damai la jawabnyeeee.
hehehe.
WQE 8008, let's go!

finals are already starting next week but then,
why tak insaf lagi niiii??!
i know i am not eager to learn about anything right now.
hmm.

i should get my lazy ass back to my books
or
bed?

It's okay.

She said it's okay.

I said it's not.

After a while, I think I am finally okay with it.

I am now okay, with the fact that I have three names in my list now, rather than just two like before.

She said it's okay.

I said it's not.

The third one is lame but I still do like it. They don't like the third one.

I know and that's why I said, it's not okay.

But last night, she said that it's okay.

I am big enough to decide.

Okay, I still do like the third one.......or more?

ps : we're having a good laugh watching our French movie. IT IS SOOOO DAMN FUNNYYYY!

Proudest Moment

Dear Mama & Papa,

Thank you for coming to my convocation. I hope I have made you proud with my achievement *cewah* but please don't expect the same for my bachelor. The papers are wayyy too hard and different. My brain has its limitation and diploma is the most that I can go. Haha. I will try but I am not promising you anything. Thank you for providing me with everything that I need from the day that I enrolled in Uitm till now. Wah wah wah dah mcm thank you speech plak. Hehe. All I want to say is thank you for listening to all my complaints, thank you for the car, thank you for the unlimited cash flowing into my bank accounts, thank you for letting me go to London to release my stress during my fast track years, thank you for not complaining with the fact that I complained too much. Hehe.

Thank you for the flowers and balloon,
even though you wanted it to be a surprise but bibik blew it away.
I love you both so much and sometimes, too much.

''Mama tak nak datang the next time if takde selempang tu''
Motherrrrrrr, PLS LA.

ps: GUYS, we have truly made it right at the moment they declared that we are now UITM's alumni. HAHA. buat rasa dah tua jaaa!
congratulations ;)

Happy y'all

Happy Graduation to all. Hehe. Ni gambar testing je. Tmoro, after the real event, I'll post the real pictures. Haha. God, who would have thought we'd made it through those 2 years of hell? But we did guys. Congratulations to all! Let's work hard for our degree. I know I have to study hard now coz I am failing every subject now. I mean, failing as in FAILED! haha. Happy Graduation, again especially to those un New Zealand, Australia, and United Kingdom!

btw, we need to bring safety pins and perhaps some hair clips for the mortar board, is it that how we spell the graduation hat? haha. anyways, my evil friends said that OBVIOUSLY my hair didnt need neither the safety pins nor the hair clips, because oh well. the mortar board fits perfectly with the volume of my hair. haha. fineeeeee, i think my hair is pretty. HAHA. ayat cover. i think my hair is unique. OBVIOUSLY! *should i go and rebond it?!!!* take that as a rethorical question coz the answer will be NON!* hehe.

toodles people. see you tomoro. my number for tmoro is 422. pfttttt. 4 and 2, both are my lucky numbers. hehe.

Diwali!

ohh, reading back my previous post. I forgot to mention, ALL MY HOUSEMATES were in the house during the robbery time. Now, we are all living in danger. I am scared.

Anyways, Happy Deepavali to all. We are celebrating our Deepavali at my aunty's house with a surprose party for mom!

Different Continents

Just like as if we're having pillow talk late at nights. Haha but minus the pillows. Hehe. I miss you, Hannah. Duhh, feels like my blog is turning into a blog that expresses love towards girls more than towards guys. HAHAHA. I am still straight. Definitely STRAIGHT!

Moving on with a much serious topic, somebody tried to rob our house at 1.15pm in the afternoon!!!! afternoon okayy. sapa yang gila nak merompak rumah tengah tengah hari and the stupid guy who looked like a drug addict gave me the excuse of looking for ENCIK ROSLI who promised him to pay for his car and I was being so extremely stupid believed him when he said he was looking for ENCIK ROSLI, which by the way I think, doesn't even exist in this holy earth! Pardon my stupidity, I slept at around 5am that morning finishing up my PSA assignment. One more thing is, my mom has taught me not to be skeptical towards others. Hehe. But I know, I should have been more clever and less stupider. Haha. BUT BUT BUT, that guy was holding a knife, or at least some sort of like a pocket knife. Tak kan nak acah acah cakap macam 'HAA, NAK MENCURI EH!!!' All I did was asked him nicely, ' Buat apa ni bang? Cari sapa? ' and he answered me nicely ' Haa, nak cari Rosli' HAHAHA okay. very stupid of me.

But here's the climax of the story. He wished me Selamat Hari Raya and shook my hand, with not much sincerity. HAHA. Haihhh, pencuri zaman sekarang. I wonder what will happen if he really did go into the house since he's got a knife with him.

Moral of the story, pls save the Police phone number with you at all times. I went to do a report and the police gave me their hotline,03-55103022. Jot down people. You may need this, just incase cause in my case, it happened on a normal Friday afternoon, at 1.15pm.

Arrrrrr, I should sleep now. It has been a few days full of tests, quizzes and assignments. I miss having study week. At least, I can plan my study sessions with all my friends and we can go to McDonalds to study at night till dawn and take crazy pictures. I miss seeing (,'') at 4am in the morning holding coffee wearing a balck tee while holding those thick books that makes him look super smart. HAHA.

haha, i better go to sleep or at least finish up my MGT's post mortem report. suddenly I feel like having toasted butterscotch laaaaaaaaaa. Adios amigos! Jom sambung gossip Hannah. HEHE. Bon, Bon, Bon!

PSA stands for Personal Secret Aid.

Spongebob : What do you usually do when I am gone ?
Patrick : Wait for you to come back.

Sometimes I feel like shaking you

Beware of thoughts that came in late at nights,
it might just come true.

Sometimes, its better to assume that everything is just plainly grey

I thought you opened a new chapter but all you did was turned to the next page and started writing again.

The pressure is up again but I dont wanna get in it just for the sake of being in it.

Some of them were fine but none of them were you

Don't try to interpret.
You might just hurt yourself.

See the reason why I wanna marry Kutcher :

"Happy anniversary @mrskutcher I'm not sure why we keep track of years in relation 2 an infinite love. But tradition wins 2day."

satu juta - kosong

Let us look things on the bright side, shall we?

There will be a graduation thingy for the Faculty of Accountancy to honour those students who got Dean's List for last semester, this wednesday and I hope that I can make it, considering that this is the first time the Faculty Of Accountancy is doing such thing. Oh yeah, I have French Test on that day and the lecturer wants to reschedule our test on Thursday with the Law Students * YEY! but there goes my chances of copying with the other students and so now, I have to really study for French yea.. je ne comprend pas * haha. crap......

Mata kabur jap sambil tulis ni sbb ada alien. haha.

We have lots of tests coming up but looking on the bright side of it, at least, this semester is coming to an end right?

Finals are coming up and at least, this semester is coming to an end kan? haha. Repetitive.

You are providing me with much entertainment right and my friends are now agreeing with me. Ku bilang kacau. Kau bilang tidak.

Beyonce, aihh, beyonce. If let say, Beyonce cancelled her concert her in Malaysia, I think, all 16 of us, in Block A 209 will be furious and will look for you, B!

Oh yeah, my Diploma Convocation is on this monday, the 19th. Everyone keeps on saying 'Eh cepatnye dah convo' and tak larat nak explain. 'A'ah buat fast track. Diploma 2 tahun'

What else?

My Sex Ed presentation went well up until someone asked me about vaginal ring, which by the way was a question that I prepared my self and then, at the moment where I was supposed to answer, I forgot. All I could say was, 'It looks like a rubber band but bigger and and and you insert it into your urm, urm, urm ' HAHAHA

and everyone made an icky face. haha. I dont know how else to explain it but shakie made a face like ' Haa, pandai pilik tajuk ni, jawab laa ape laagiii' hahah. Looking at the bright side, I am done with BEL for the semester. BEL for those who don't know, is an irritating subject that must be taken for most of the semester, especially for us, Accountancy Students.

I am really looking at the bright side of things.

dah sampai satu juta -kosong dah.
it's not the stomach,
it's not the hair,
it's not the body,
it's not the princess part,
but
it's the part where I should be irritated most and yet, I am not.
but my friends are.
hehe.
nak test power bole,
but find a person that is at par with you,
which I am not.
I am way up high, in a different league.
I'm in League A,
You're in League C-,
which means that,
You failed.
HEHE.

ahhh, post ni mengarot.
ada kotak kosong kat sni.
sapa2 nak isikan dgn something?

she smiles..

hello peeps,

this week will be just another weekend with not much activities.
tonnes of work to do and yet, none is in progress except for the oh so exciting subject, BEL!
a movie is in the making for our third language, FRENCH!
every time someone is explaining to me about that language, as in FRENCH, I will stare at them like as if, they are talking about another language that I don't understand which by the way, I DONT! haha but I do know that in that movie, I am an ecrivain, which is a writer. hehe.
anyways, extremely excited about Beyonce coming to town.
my BEL presentation about SEX EDUCATION which by the way, is not THAT interesting and very FACTUAL, is on Monday and I am hell excited. haha, NOT!

oh dear boy, I read your blog, and shite, I can hardly understand a thing because your english level is like the goddess of all english. haihhhh, for you to say that you are hungry, you have to say things like, my stomach is screaming, hunting, etc etc etc for the warmest thing to be swallowed etc etc etc and so, the conclusion is, you are hungry. haha. my god, luckily you have more than just smart brains. haha. i live in fantasies, you are living in another dimension in another planet with different language with other really nice looking 6 footers , like you (,") hehe

what else, convocation? should we be excited? cause i am not. but usually, when you are not excited, things turn out pretty good.

my bumblered is doing fine but without the radio. ok, kne nyanyi sndiri la kan. haha.

hilary duff did just fine in gossip girl. i think so too. don't you?

okay. nak tido tapi someone is sleeping next to me, and while he, ehh ehh she... haha. while she is sleeping, she laughed just now. haha. nak tau jugak dia mimpi ape ni?! haha.

toodles peeps.

twelve.

The funny and yet most hurtful thing is,

you were the one that taught me how to not miss you anymore,

so pardon me when at the moment you utter those words,

all I could do was stare in the screen and paused.

you know every thing takes time and I am willing to learn how to miss you again.

but, prove me wrong and please, surprise me with something.

yes, I am asking for it.

Surprise me, even the smallest gesture will do.

cerita dongeng

'This cereal box has everything that you need'
'That's the thing. It has everything that I need, but not everything that I want'

okay, ni cerita dongeng.

dup dap dup dap dup dap
* my heart was racing so fast, I was so scared it was gonna pop out*

suddenly, the car passed by and then,

duuup daaaap duuuup daaaap
* my heart went back to the normal heart beat*

even after all of THESE, it is still that car uh.

yeah, that car.
you don't even want to know which car, because it could have been another car,
but no, it is still THAT car.
hint hint,
not the gray car.

ingat, cerita dongeng.

ps: this new layout makes me feel like posting fantasies and not realities.
reality check on my reality, yeah. reality still sucks.
so there you go. fantasy wins for now.

Always.

I had too much caring for the world.
It was too much at one time.
All I needed was some attention, an assurance that I was loved, by whomever.
I cared about you, as you were very much part of my life.
Seeing you everyday, became the highlighted event of my day.
Talking to you back then, felt as if like you were the only one who can understand me.
More of the opposite of me you were.
I talked too much and you listened.
I was more friendly than you will ever be but somehow you are more witty than me.
You were always on top and I tried my best to follow your trail.
More or less, I did follow you but more on the wild side.
I led you to some crazy mess but you didn’t care because we had fun.
We laughed, cried, talked, gossiped, more than any girl should.
I do worry sometimes that one day, somebody will take you away from me but since you’d always find your path back to me, I kept quiet.
Now, time passes by faster than ever, we are growing up, turning into humans in the real world.
Probably you wouldn’t even notice that I’m actually talking about a person whom I love very much indeed, that at any particular time of a day, I’d take a bullet for her.
Will she protect me and do the same? I don’t think so.
Maybe I’m wrong.
Prove me wrong once and show me you care.
Much can be done to show me that you do see me as someone you really, deeply care.
Enough to make me feel important in your busy life.
There are such things as karma and the world do actually go round.
Mind you, we lead the same life, forecasting the same kind of future.
Out of everyone else in this universe, I should understand you better.
All I’m saying now is ,all this while I made too much effort to keep this thing going and feels like it’s going nowhere.
Sooner or later you’ll be gone, miles miles away.
I should be getting used to this by now.
I don’t wanna get used to it.
I don’t.
Again.
Prove me wrong and surprise me, Princess.
Make up for the time we lost before we’re too old to even remember each other’s nick name.

remember this post? of course I do.
And this was last year.

You made me cry last night,
You made me think,
You made me feel worth it, again and

Of course I miss you for all those lost times,
Of course I love you, always.

jadual finals cantek!

There are 26 alphabets in the history of Alphabets but the one alphabet that keeps on ruining my life is always the second one.

B stands for bengang.

B stands for betrayal.

B stands for boleh blah.

But B also stands for the person that will cheer me up soon.

B........................................EEYYYYOOOONNCCCCEEEEEEEEEEEE!

hehe.

yeah, I am bengang because I just got betrayed and that person boleh blah but I know beyonce will be there for my birthday!

haha.

yeah, B people. B!

Your Existence Bothers Me

hello everyone,

i am at beril's while everyone is learning how to make ketupat for tomorrow's class party for raya for our Management subject. Motives are, to see how the whole class cooperate and to celebrate hari raya! oh well, the class cooperates just fine. btw, I dont feel like learning how to make ketupat. I'll be just fine not knowing how to make kutupat. haha.

i seriously need a new phone but the one that i want is too expensive, for now. i am aware that i am still a student and i cant afford expensive luxurious handphones tp teringin ;)

out for now!

nak gi cari duit sana sini.

tp tak reti buat ketupat. so how ;(

And she said....

".....Lets walk in the streets of LA again. i need a break from Malaysia"
I did not say this.
She did.
We are definitely related.
Cause you can read my mind so well.
Studying sucks.
I can't even tell you what am I learning right now cause I hardly listen to the lectures.
Classes are there just to meet friends and to catch up on gossips and hot news.
Make sure you sign your attendance before you leave the class so that
all the waking up in the morning will be worth it.
I am not eager to study anymore.
Life is empty.
Kosong.
Probably tomorrow will be a better day.
Let's hope so.
But this is like the 'nth' time that I have been putting my hopes up everyday
and as usual,
No changes whatsoever.


Would be nice if you are here so that we can dwell on it together.
I miss you, awfully.
Especially when I went back to Beril but I took a set of faulty keys
and at that present moment I thought to myself
'Problems would be solved if she was here. She can just pick me up'
And of course, during moments like this where you realize that
you miss that person so much
through thick and thin.

Still, walking the streets of LA would solve a lot of problem as well.

Abolish Bel pls.

Someone was saying she found my blog and was shocked to read my blog. Because it is not exactly like Jasmin Anis in the real outside world. Haha. Is there such things? I don't know how to respond to that because I am Jasmin Anis from both the worlds, and I do write like this ever since forever. Haha. I don't know how else to say things and I do know that I don't express good feelings as much as I express my down moments. You have more to say when you are angry and sad rather than when you are happy and I guess, when you are happy, you can just snap some pictures and you can clearly see that you are happy but not when you are sad. You can fake a picture but never ever can you fake your words.

"When I found out, I felt like my face was hit by a big brick, my stomach was being punched a couple of times and my heart, my heart was being stabbed endlessly. Literally, that was how it felt like."

Can anyone snap a picture with this kind of caption?

"With that, I looked like the bad guy who wanted to win it all, but when all I wanted was some justification that I actually did exist in your life and somehow, I wanted to know whether there was at least one time, I was the one who gave you some excitement, encouragement, hope, happiness, sparks, cheers and most importantly, I was the one who gave you the feeling of love. That’s why I was feeling so down."

And this one?

If any one of you can, please tell me to how to do it, and until that day arrives, I will stick to the way I know how to write and you guys have to accept that I am jiwang. Haha.

Ps : Those excerpts are the real ones from the real copy of the real folder. So, yeah. Those are real.

More Than You Know It

The usual scene would be that he will be playing by the river court, wearing a thin light brown v neck t shirt or just a gray jumper with a loose sweat pants. She will be sitting on her big chair, listening to another mix disc from another aspiring artist. He will welcome us to the whole different world with wonderful quotes and one way or another; you’ll be mesmerized by it. She believes in fate and destiny, more than anyone else. He has the most twisted and most complicated theories about girls and will treat those who are not his girlfriend the best. She had always known whom she wanted to marry from the beginning. He had only one best friend. She had two moms. He has HCM, which is a heart condition. She has the tendencies to get cancer, considering her biological mom died because of cancer. He loves basketball. She loves music. He loves her more than anything else. She loves him more than anything else.

The usual scenes vanished as the producer decided to withdraw them from the cast. At first, I thought that it will be fine. One Tree Hill moves along and the rest of the cast will continue to do a great job but probably I got my hopes up too high before everything started. It is not as great as last time. No more quotes from a strange unknown writer, no more cool songs from unknown local bands. No more cool macho guy who reminds me a lot of (,”). No more the Comet. So the bottom line is, no more Lucas and Peyton. They are the back bone of Tree Hill and they are not there anymore. They can be the cheesiest couple but still, Leyton was great and the main point is that, all the fans love them. I miss Mr and Mrs Lucas Scott.

FYI, NO ONE PLAYS BY THE RIVER COURT ANYMORE!

for the moment, this will do ;)



even if they dont say that much words to each other but they are good enough. I mean, Julian IS good enough.