Batu.

Had a bucket full of rocks, I throw it all away.
Before I did, I browsed through it one by one.
Found one that I really liked, I kept it.
Carried it around everywhere in my pocket.
One day, I found a hole in my pocket.
The rock was gone.
The rock was gone.
The rock was gone.
If only I can find the same rock again.
I would kept it in another pocket.

Now, too many rocks in one paragraph.
They sound weird when you repeat it again and again,
but then, all word turns out weird when you repeat them again and again.

Thankful.

It's 1.28am with the sound of the fan accompanying me through out the whole night, along with Yuna singing 'Decorate' in my ears. It's been quite a day for me and quite a night. Here in Alostar, the night time comes at around 7.30pm or so, and up till the next morning, it'll be dark. My night was alright until around 9.30pm. It didn't need much words, just maybe one punchy line or so and the deed was done. Getting tired of it, its getting pretty old. 

I keep reminding myself, be thankful, be thankful, be thankful. God knows, how thankful I am, but maybe I don't show it enough but please do know, I am more than thankful to be born into this amazing world and I'll always be forever thankful for that. Just some times, when you think you've given everything, you know it'll never be enough OR maybe, I haven't given the best. I don't know. Like I said, its getting pretty old. I am getting old, day by day. 

Just a dream..

Everyday, my goal is to wake up early. As early as I possibly could  but I know those are just goals and dreams because I slept at 4am last night. Not that I had much to do, but catching up with friends, listening to new songs, watch any new videos, and played some games of Facebook(THAT boring Facebook). I know this is how my holidays will be like, since I have no proper holidays plan to go somewhere. I can't really say I love it to be doing  the same thing day in, day out but I'm not hating it either. 

I woke up at around 11.13am (not saying this with a proud tone) and had one of the most amazing dream, after lots of very plain ones, this was the climax of it all. So, I payed with phone and looked for ways, not to get out of bed. I lingered around till it was 11.56am. God, that was how lazy and happy I am to just lay around doing nothing and now here I am, looking for ways to enhance my days and make it more productive. Bet mom has got some chores for me to do, some errands for me to run for her. Wish I could be in Shah Alam right now, attend the SIFE AGM meeting. I miss the people in Shah Alam, oh God. Ahhh, one can never be satisfied right? When I am in Shah Alam, I crave of being here at home, but now I am in Alor Star, I wanna be in Shah Alam, but when I was in..... nevermind...

I forgot to bring my swimming suit, hence, no swimming activity for me. I brought back my running shoes but that seems like a big task. Hmmmmmmm. 

I better get my ass downstairs and start showing my face to Mom before she screams my name. Hihi. Those out there, who are sitting for their SPM, Goodluck girls & boys. You can do it!

I'd rather be a beast with a heart than a beauty with none.

FIll me in with workload, I need my mind to be occupied rather than thinking about things that I am not supposed to think about. 

2 nights in a row with thoughts that bug me like hell. 

It changed my mood, it changed my perspective towards.... Life.

If this keep on going, this holidays would be nothing but fun.

Funny Readers.

And so I have funny readers, like the sitcom Friends kinda funny. Okay maybe not THAT funny but funny enough to make me smile reading it, or maybe burst into a laughter. So I wrote a post on how I feel about leaving my student life, then I thought okay, I better stop now because it's getting kind of heavy. Then I typed the word WEDDING  there and the rests of the words, VANISHED!

They couldn't care less to to comment on my feelings :( but they were so excited about the wedding and I think I'm gonna write a post on it but right now, at this particular moment, mom is cleaning up the kitchen and she's waiting for me to sweep the floors or something. So I don't want to interrupt my wedding moment with a mop or a broom. So, this is me saying good bye, stay tuned and Selamat Hari Raya Korban :)

Long Live!

I let out a big sigh, the holiday has begun. I should be happy. I am. Don't get me wrong. I am happy but just not, deliriously happy. During the finals, all I can think about is, this is the second last time I'll be sitting for my finals. I should be happy about it, with the fact that I am leaving all the thick books behind, all the notes and all the assignments behind. Of course I am happy about that but the fact that when I am done enjoying myself with the holidays, I am up for a big challenge. I'll be working at a firm. That sounds so serious isn't it? I am scared, terrified and mostly sad that I am leaving the comfort zone of being a student. That is what I am afraid of. Everyone keeps on telling me, enjoy your student life. That's when you have all the fun and excitement. I am having fun. I really am. Life is sometimes added with stress but most of the times, I am just happy to go through it with the presence of my family and friends. I will miss that. Everyone keeps on reminding me about the real world as well. So, where are we living now? The fantasy world? Don't think so cause in my fantasy, my hair is straight! Haha. 

I don't think about this all the time but the thoughts come and go. They popped up in my  head and refused to leave me alone until I set a certain goal or target in life. I can set them but only time will tell with of course, God's willing. I am taking it one time at a time. I don't expect all the answers at one go. I guess, I just need to breathe in and out.

I miss you guys!

Alright, this is a heavy post. Ni baru pkir psal future in terms of career wise, I haven't started on the wedding part. Haha. God bless us all. Aminn. 

Take me home, please.

I've always had this little plans that I would like to be executed on the next day of my life. I plan things like this when I go for cold shower, for a swim, a drive to nowhere, and sometimes just anywhere, doing anything. So last night I planned things inside my little mind. I wanted to run errands, as many as possible. I needed to go to the bank, fill up the car petrol for the car, go to the post office, check out the US currency at the money changer,  read at least 4 chapter of AIS, surf the internet A BIT and go hang out with my friends when the clock reaches 9.28pm. True enough, I did go to the ATM, I did fill up the car petrol, I did read one chapter of AIS and I basically surfed up the Internet the whole entire evening and of course, the crucial part of my day starts at 9.28pm. I want to go hang out with my friends. I need that after one chapter of AIS. Haha. 

I still haven't learned my lesson from planning the day. All the plans will just go down the drain, or most likely, down the bed with me, in my dreams. I was planning to go swimming on Saturday evening but other plans sounded more amazing than swimming. Swimming was postponed till the next morning/afternoon and I did swim for like 4 rounds and then it started raining. Blame the rain. Not me.

Speaking of the rain, my hometown just went through a horrible event of flood. I never thought that my house will be part of it but apparently, the whole town was involved. Luckily the water didn't go inside my house but still, no one could get out of the house because the road was covered with nothing but water, up the ankle. I bet all of this is not a good thing but my sister said she enjoyed her first flood experience and it was exciting "_" Now I feel like going back home, just for the excitement of it but frankly, I am sad. Wish I'm home to help my mom clean up the house, maybe go around town (by boat, or rakit) to help those in need. People are always helping other people in other countries when they are in need but what about helping out our own community when they are REALLY in need? I wanna go back. 

I really do. 

And I hope and pray to god that there will be no second wave coming around or anything. Its too much for Alostar to handle but if God is really testing us, then probably He'll get us through isn't it? 

He can't be in all 17 countries.

I've been wanting to blog about it since it happened but I was so swamped with non important things that I forgot what I initially wanted to write. So, this morning, I was up first in this big house, which is so rare, due to my inability to wake up first daily. Haha. WAKE UP PEOPLE. Its already 8.20am. 

So, what is the important thing that I really have to blog about? Everyone knows by now that I am a huge/large/biggest fan of One Tree Hill and to be more precise, I am a big fan of Julian and Brooke or Sophia Bush and Austin Nichols. I really am :) So the other day, we were all busy studying for our Corporate Governance paper on Tuesday evening. God knows how I dreaded the paper. The amount of effort you had to put in remembering all those procedures, oh God, we should be given the rights to bring that one text book in. It was so thick, it's just impossible to even remember anything. So, since we were so bored to death, Izrin and I had a little game that we played on Twitter. Izrin asked Lisa Surihani's for one good luck wish and lucky enough, her wish was granted. I wanted the same thing so I just retweeted it and wrote, 'Nak jugak. Exam yang sama!'. Too bad she didnt reply! Haha. We've met you know, Lisa. Anywayyyyy, Izrin said, go ask Fazura for the wish, and I was like, 'Nah. I'll go straight to Hilary Duff' and I did but a few moments later, her sister tweeted about how much fun they were having since it is Halloween Night and I thought, no way she was gonna reply that, she's drunk. Haha. I continued studying after that while slowly wishing that Lisa Surihani would reply. HAHAHA. After 5 hours, still no news from her. 

I ignored the whole thing and continued studying and sleeping at the same time. When it is already night time, I was playing with my phone and saw Austin Nichols actively tweeting about some BP, the oil and gas company that he was against and some other stuff and I know how nice he is. Hehe. So I did tweet him saying that if he replied my tweets by wishing me Good Luck, I'll try my best to ace the exam (UHHUH) and I will fight against BP with him. I clicked the 'Send' button and continued reading endlessly. After like 2 minutes, my phone showed a Direct Message notification and lucky enough, it was from him. Him as in Austin Nichols, as in Julian Baker, as in Brooke's fiance and Sophia Bush's real boyfriend. He was so sweet before and now he is much much more sweeter. I have this new level of respect and love towards him. HAHA. 

Here's the proof. My sister doesn't believe it. Hehe. Trust me, I can lie about anything and make it seem real but what's the point? HAHA :))

Ohh Austin Nichols, thank you for uplifting my spirit but let's get real, it is all words and not numbers. Not my most special areas but I did try and I will inform you on the results. I guess I was really touched because he took the time to write and send it through Direct Message. I mean, I am just a tiny percentage of people who tweeted him and I bet you guys will be saying, its Austin Nichols and he's no Brad Pitt. Haha. I don't care. Go watch One Tree Hill and tell me what do u think of him? Hehe. And as for the little game that we played, I called Izrin to inform her about it. So, Lisa Surihani WHO????? HAHAHAHAHA.

I want to believe that this is God's way of repaying me for missing HILARY DUFF, TAYLOR SWIFT AND SOPHIA BUSH !!!!!!

Goodbye October. You've been nothing but a blast!

Hello people of the bloggerworld. I know its been a while since I last updated this little diary of mine. *blowing off all the dusts* The month of October went by so fast, I had to force myself to take a mental image of everything but now I am regretting it because I miss every single moment of it. 

I went to the place that I've been longing to go again, each day of my entire life and so my wish was granted when I joined SIFE. A little organization in UITM that made such impacts in my life. 

Anyway, I think I'm not gonna let words describe how was LA, but I am gonna let one picture of the scene I had in my mind to describe it. This is how I see LA, and this is how I wanna remember it. Nice and pretty. 

The month of October was beyond amazing. I had an awesome birthday. My cousin, Fiza did a great job on writing it on her blog. Check out her blog if you wanna see it :)

Its November now, so you know its STRESSED UP time, where finals are the biggest hurdle of all time. 

Truth is, I don't know how to start writing again, for now. Life's been good to me that I don't have anything to complain about :DD