And so I passed my first ever professional paper, alhamdulillah. It felt good, knowing that all your efforts and prayers paid off. If I had failed, I know who to blame. (The one and only, yours truly who went out most of the nights, when she should be staying at home and study) And of course, if I failed it must have been because I was not ethical enough because it was a Corporate Governance paper. Lol! This time around, I passed because I studied hard, prayed hard and of course, with the extra touch of my parents' blessings. I am one who believes deeply in these kind of things because when you've been through it, you will feel its presence. This is sort off the part two of my previous post.
As I grow older, I'm starting to realise the importance of having a good relationship with my parents, especially my mother. My days would suck if we're on bad terms. My days would feel empty without her calls. Basically, I try my best to please her on a daily basis but all of these have been learned in a few years time, especially ever since I've been living on my own. At the end of the day, your life would be blissful if your parents are happy, not your friends, not your siblings and most importantly, not your boyfriend. I come back at my mother's command. Sometimes, I get a phone call from my mother asking me to come back on the same day. Mind you, Alor Star is far and it gets tiring sometimes but... when your mother asks you to come back, she means it. As a matter of fact, I sort of plan my daily schedule at my mother's command. For example, entertain my grandmother, go visit my uncle, go back to Ampang, buy her curtains, and sometimes, go see her customer.
To cut my long story short, during the one month study break, my mother wanted to bring my grandmother back to Alor Star knowing that I would be at home studying. Frankly, I cringed a bit when I found out about it. For me to be taking care of my grandmother when I am free and doing nothing would be more than fine but to take care of her during my study week would be quite a challenge. I did complain to a friend but she sort of said "Come on, takpe, buat je bagi dapat berkat" I took a really deep breath and I did. My priority changed during that time. Studying comes second and I would only do it if I had the time and energy. Pffttt! Excuses after excuses. Basically, all I did for the first two weeks was entertaining my grandmother who loves to go out for breakfast, lunch, tea and dinner. Sometimes, it would just be the two of us going out for breakfast and lunch. Sometimes, Mom would give me time to study and took my grandmother out for tea. Any ways that would fit our timetable. Somehow, it worked. My grandmother can be quite funny sometimes. She would pat the pillows a few times and say "Tido jom, asyik belajar je nak" HAHA I barely touched the books when she was around but when I do, she'd day "Mintak lulus la nak ye, rajin sangat" Hahahahaha funny but that's a doa right there and it came true.
Later, I went back to Shah Alam with a worried heart and empty mind. I had to start from scratch but I had two weeks to study. I was more than thankful for those two weeks. Probably one would say 'Alah, jaga maktok je kot, semua orang jaga kot' but I hardly do so, thus it is not an ordinary act for me. I would say the timing was right. I've heard a saying "If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it" Fair enough, it is true. My mother was more than happy for that two weeks, to be having her mother around with us. I made her happy that two weeks. In return, I received more than what I bargained for. Probably one would say 'Oh come on, orang lain relax je pass tak kecoh pon' Hahaha okay, mohon faham ni blog sapa. Kahkahkah. Annoying kann.
I am not trying to say that I passed because I took care of my grandmother but it goes beyond that. Of course, those daily visits to the library, helpful friends and seniors made it possible but I really think that it was my parents' blessings that added the extra few points in the exams. At the end of the day, we only have one mother and one father. It took me a while to comprehend that fact. Appreciate them while they are still around and your life will work itself out, miraculously. I love my parents too much ;') for everything. Its the little things in life that counts and sometimes, you can't see it but you can definitely feel it.
This feels like a thank you speech, in a way. Haha. Its more than that. I see it as a reflection ;) For me to improve and refine.
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