Sunday, February 10, 2013

Pain in all forms.


Wishing that I was a little kid, again who only recognizes fun, laughter and physical pain if I ever fall down.
Physical pain is easily cured but not emotional and mental pain.
I wonder if I ever did recover from one of those intangible pain?
Because sometimes, when I look back and I flip through those memories,
I don't remember what had happened but somehow, I remember what I felt. 

Saturday, February 09, 2013

A baby, no more.

Growing up, my brother and I were never that close as we have a 4 year old gap in between us. 4 years is not that much but I guess, we are just so different while growing up. I remember calling him Adam when we were younger until my aunty said, "He's your big brother. Call him Abang Adam". So I did call him Abang Adam until of course, now it became Abdam. As we grow older, I moved to Shah Alam and at that time, he was living in Subang, we were forced to be close to each other. We were forced to talk to each other. He would pick me up from my college and send me back to my aunty's place in Ampang, then we would go out for dinner or lunch. He would call me once in a while to check on me. I will call him up for money or my free ticket. Haha. What else can a little sister do to his big brother? Ask for things and bug him, always. 

 He will always tell me all his girl problems, never about work and I will always listen and just gave him a straight up answer that he probably never want to hear but somehow, I never tell him who am I going out with or anything.  I wonder why.. Things have changed and he's getting married in about 6 more days. I know I will not lose him as  a brother but after this, I cannot be mad at him if he prioritizes the wife, over the sister. Its a tad bit emotional thinking about it actually. So, my brother is getting married soon. Boo hoo. Wait, I'm living with him after this. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. 




Last time having dinner with the cousins before he gets married.