Everyone

Everyone is leaving. It is so sad. Leaving for their new semester. Should i be eager to start the new semester as a degree student? Should we be excited? How about the class placements? Now, that is something that i am not anticipating. I wanna be with my classmates, and all of you would be saying the same thing. Yeah, I know. Enough about the new semester. Biarlah orang lain start dulu. We deserve to enjoy our holidays.

I went out with practically everyone today and I know my mom will be having a hard time with me if I keep this up, until the end of the holidays. haha. like i said mama, Don't worry. Everyone is leaving soon. And you will have all the time in the world with your eldest daughter.

I am seriously sad tonight. Everyone is leaving. Started this morning , when mysara sent off someone to the bus station and later, i went to say goodbye to a senior in Pcfc and at night, i had my last meal with Suphannsa before she goes off to enrol in some college in KL. Aliyah is leaving tomorrow to send her father to KL. I bet the rest will follow. Ok, pls explain why am i making all these list. haha. Just to show the reason why i am sad tonight. Whatever it is, i should be unpacking all my things now while everyone is ready to pack their things back. Aih, the downside of being a Fastrack students.

Argh, seriously sedeyh.

More Of You

to make it less serious.

Not that i don't wanna talk about it, but somehow, knowing that people are reading this, i don't feel right. I'm not saying it in a prasan mode but in a cautious mode. More than anything else, i want to write about it. As a closure. I need an ending for it. It has ended like way way way before but...... I don't wanna be the one still talking about it and later, being the one who can't actually move on. You tell me something, how can you move on when the things that you're trying to run away from, is standing right in front of you? They are not chasing you, but they are just in front of you. Try to be in my shoes and let me know how you feel. Anyone for that matter. I thought everyone got what they wanted but i actually doubt that. I seriously don't know whether i got what i wanted or not but for now, all the signs that i have been asking from God, has shown me, whatever it is that is necessary for me. The signs are good enough. Whatever it is, in between us, there will always be a line. A line that you sketched nicely after a perfect night and i did the honour of making it permanent, which i think is the best for us. So that no one can say that I'm trying to take anyone away from anybody. I know where i stand and i stand no where near you. Remember the line. I have no intention to bash anyone right now because if i do, i'll be at the same level as you are. I'm just letting go whatever is necessary for my healing process, which by the way is a long and painful process. There was never a day that goes by where i don't think about it. They say you should hold on to the good and nice memories, but then you'd ask yourself, if the memory is good and nice, why can't they be made again? Why can't you re-enact them again? Then comes the main reason for it. The main reason. Yeah, the main reason for it is still the #1 factor for everything. You'd say no, I'd say yes and we both know it is and that's the damn truth. I am being a grown up and i don't wanna be all mushy mushy about it. Just give me more time and space. Let's leave the past behind. Don't think that i am not ok. I am more than fine. I am up and happy all the time. Nothing bothers me like before just that sometimes, i have my good days and my bad days. Anyways, I just can't wait to balik Alostar and meet up with ALL my friends.

ps: Urbanscapes was awesome. And i feel like a sore loser for typing all this out and i don't feel like posting this but.........it's my blog kan. HAHA

mak saya bawak rambutan fresh dari pokok halaman rumah untuk saya.

dear baby, your new movie is really hot and it looks like a really cool movie. I will be the first one in line to catch your latest flick when it comes out in theater. You're so freaking sexy in the trailer that i can barely catch my breath. I still wonder what is it about you that i actually fancy so much. I know it's the look, it's your way of doing things, it's your hardworkingness, it's your hair, it's the way you talk to your step-daughters but mostly, it's your loyalty to your wife solely, that's turning me on. Yes, you are still my #1. No one can ever replace you,in my fantasy.

ps: Your face can make me forget about my problems and thankfully, for tonight, it was really helpful. Like i said, you come and go like my food cravings. For now, my cravings for all kinds of stuff are driving me up the wall. And with that, you are driving me up the wall as well . Luckily, Ashton came to the rescue along with some of my friends. I love you all. Ashton gets a bigger portion. HAHA. and before i forget, the movie is called "Spread".

Love Always,
Jasmin Anis

a place in this world.

hello people, third day into the holidays.

yes, it is indeed important for us to count the holidays because we don't have much of it.

check out my new layout. i don't really like it, but it's new and maybe i need sometime to get used to it. maybe. can u guys pls tell me what do u guys think of it coz i want to change it but i still cant find the right one.

anyways, my mom is coming today because aiman is registering on saturday. hehe. segamat is kinda far away and i hope little boy, that you do survive out there.

what's the plan for today? nothing much except for waiting for my mom.

oh yeah, i went out yesterday with liy, pah and a bunch of other liy's CBN-ers friends. we watched TRANSFORMER. overall, i think it was a good movie but it lacks of human contacts. haha. i mean physical contacts. so basically, this movie is about shia labeouf and megan fox, running away from the alien robots. frankly, when i try to focus so badly, trying to lock my eyes to the screen, my mind will be wandering away because there was just toooo much fighting robotic scenes. but like i said, overall, it's a good movie.

after the movie, we went to get Arabic food and that was quite yummy and we just hung out like usual but i think all of us are a bit high due to something that we had. haha. it is such a relieve to have fun without having ant quizzes, tests, and exams waiting in queue.

i still miss home so much. nana is going back today. and i am the only one left here. even shakirah is in kedah now. i'm coming home soon guys and we can all go to the band competition together. yey. something to look forward to.

i think i better take a bath now. tata.

fara eva, you can do it, baby!

it's done and i am soooo over it. ok goodbye diploma and no, i am not welcoming you , degree. wait for a while. let me have my break and i'll let you in with an open and peaceful heart. let me go back to my home town first. i miss home super banyak2. alostar here i come!

ps: let's hope that there's no heartache or any roller-coaster-like-emotional-ride during my 2 weeks holiday shall we.

60 days!

one more day left, one more, only one more.

one more day left for everything to be over, provided that we don't repeat any of the intersession papers. AMIN.

i can't seem to figure out why i can't focus and concentrate. maybe because, it is towards the end.

i can't wait for everything to be over.

good luck everyone for your papers ;)

ps: You come and you go from my brain like the cravings of crepes in the winter in Hamsptead , in the middle of the freezing cold. It doesn’t come too often but when it does appear, it feels really good ;)

5 hours is not enough.

it was sharifah's 20th birthday celebration yesterday.

this is a party held by her big her sister.

was it fun? YESSSSSSSSSSSSS.

i guess it is fun when you see it as a getaway from all the studying.

and maybe, it is another reason to have fun with Liy before she goes away.

time flies when you are not aware of it.

just imagine, we are all turning 20 this year.

i have a few months to go but still.

i still act like a kid sometimes.

like a baby most of the time.

believe it or not, we are graduating diploma soon.

taking the big step venturing into degree.

i really hope that once we're doing our degree,

we wil not be as hectic as we used to be,

as stressful as it used to be.

i want to just study, lazily.

anyway, Liy is still going away.

that will be very sad.

she will be the first one to go.

'babe, i just made my decision to go, recently and i know, i can't go against my decision now'

yes, we will all support you in every way that we can.

ps: somehow, i feel like this blog has turned into something different. i want to be able to write something meaningful again but indirectly, we all know to whom it will be dedicated to. pfttttt!

saya bangga menjadi orang KEDAH yang tinggal di Jalan Pipit =)

enlarge the picture pls ;)
do i need to say more?

took this from aimi's blog.

suddenly......

.............i miss home so freaking badly

Probably it is because for the past few days, my mom has been calling me a lot. A lot like a lot a lot. Haha. She would call to just ask me where i am and when i tell her my exact location, she'll be like, 'aih, asek kluar je'. haha. aih, mothers. she would call to check on me, even when she knows i'm with my brother and next, she would call my brother, even when she knows he's with me. she would call to give me some information about my former school in KEDAH. she would call to remind me about my contact lens. She would call to ask me to call my father to ask for the extra money. haha. nice one. she would call to just tell me that they're going somewhere. she would just call, oh well, just because. BUT one thing for sure, my mom will not call me when she's watching the television. sometimes, she would just hang up on me with no main reason, except that, she's watching the stupid box. i am like that as well. haha. like mother like daughter.

Probably it is because of the text message i got a few days back saying that someone is back in KEDAH and not in Shah Alam anymore. of course i know you're in KEDAH and not in Shah Alam anymore but i am still here, in Shah Alam. no point of you sending me the text message right. hmm, i haven't seen you in at least 2 years. lamanya!

Probably it is because i have been counting the days since i last went back to KEDAH and the total of days is around 55 days! my god, that's my highest personal record! hmm, lamanya T_T

Probably it is because none of KEDAH friends are here! i repeat NONE! no maisara, no zakian, no salmi, no pon ,;( i have the keys to maisara's empty house but obviously it's no use unless for certain random purposes. of course i have my friends here but you don't forget about your KEDAH friends do you?

probably because i am just proud to be a kedahan. that's why i miss KEDAH. just when you think you'll get used to the current adjusted life, you suddenly miss all your family members, like your dad, your mom, your baby sister, your brother, your friends and everything. i miss KEDAH, kampung ku ;)

this is one of the nice of view of kedah. this is in front of my school.
credit to mysara and kak nuha or kak alia? haha.

so, no matter what happens, i am still proud to be a kedahan like you too guys!

aku bleh cakap kedah laa kan. awat ang xle ka? haha
sapa kata orang kedah xstai ah?

argh, damn it, i miss home!

satu tahun = 365 hari ; more than that

it has been more than a year since i set up this account.
it has been more than a year since i have become one of the blogger.
it has been more than a year since i have agreed to let people read my writings.
it has been more than a year since everything started but it definitely took less than one year to ruin everything.

i have more to say but it's better to keep it to yourself rather than letting it out and ruin more things, get in more unnecessary heartache and hurt others ;p.

Remember Me As The Time Of The Day

feel it, feel it, FEEL IT.
haha.
the intensity.

fantasy is sweeeeeeeeeet.

yes, i love to day dream.
haha.
it is 5.22pm now.
it feels good to get lost in your own thoughts, especially after having a long day.
two tests, 8 chapters, 3 hours of sitting in the class pouring your brain out only to measure the amount of studying you did the night before and an endless amount of complaining that was done earlier.
whining about how other people is sitting at home, watching TV, sleeping and lazying around.
and here we are, stuck in the college, having to study.
bosan dah for every post ckp psal buku, test, quiz, mls, pnat stdy but that's jz the way it is.
i will not let my kids enrol in any fast track programs.
haha

ok boring la tu.
jom continue brangan.

julian did end up with brooke.
now, i bet their scenes for Season 7 of One Tree Hill will less exciting because they have both admitted that they are in love with each other.
auwwwww.
so what else?
waiting for the big question to pop?
maybe yes, maybe no.
i hope yes ;)