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still figuring it out.

hey,

i just got back from port dickson, where we had our family gathering. it was so much FUN. the place is so cool and exciting. it is called Eagle Ranch. it is a real ranch , minus the part where we're not in Texas, usa. haha. but time was a bit limited bcoz we stayed there for only one night. trying to find 3 days of holidays in a 100 people's calendar would be a bit tight, i guess. our family was divided into 5 teams. RED( my team), yellow, blue, green and black. the yellow team won and we got fourth place. mind you, i have almost 50 cousins and we're close. haha. that's a lot, i know.

so basically, we had our little telematch and stuff. and later on, i played go kart, ATV , cycling but i did not swim as i did not bring my swimming suit. and everything was cheap. xcekik darah la. for most of the rides, it was Rm 20 for 5 laps.

at night, we had bbq for dinner and the theme was hawaian. i think i went out of the way a bit. haha. i had this flower wreath on my head and somehow, it looked like a greek goddess or what. hahah. i really had fun this time around. we slept late that night because we had a some sort of cerita hantu session. as usual. hehe. pastu takot nak g toilet to bukak contact lens and gosok gigi, kncing suma. haha

new year's coming up and we havent set the place or whatever plans that we have for new year. so guys, where are we going?

i am an almost grown up and i shall not play with a teddy bear anymore.

again, i pushed my ego away just to save a friendship and you ignored it. why do i even care about YOU!!! don't worry. i know you've got your back up right. ok. i'll just back off. i can be so stupid at times.

i lost.

2008 has been one heck of a year. i wonder how will 2009 be.

i would like to be in the normal track pls.

i feel sick, i feel like puking, i feel like sleeping, i feel like going on a holiday and i just don't feel like going back to sh alam. next semester's timetable is so packed that i dont think we'll even have time to breathe. i'm not ready to talk about this nor am i ready to think about it. the time table is making me more eager to study somewhere else. hey mr dean, we are students ,not robots. fcuk la.

i am so bored right now and i am trying to kill time. i swept the hse already, havent done the moping yet, perhaps i will watch oth for a bit. i have to run errands for my mom today but there's only one car. i would like to go out for lunch but no one has asked me out today and i dont have the car, again.

thank you UITM for making my day so bright and shiny!

// i want to spend only one more day with you and nothing more. so that i can tell you what's been bugging me and you'll find another way to bug me even more.

if i could buy you time, i would.

don't ask.
it's a bit too complicated.
i don't like edward alone neither do i like bella alone.
it's different when they are together.

other than my current obsession with the fantasy world, i miss my friends already. seriously, i miss them a lot. my relatives are at home , so it's a bit hard for me to go out as usual.

in 8 days time, we will be in our little tiny space in the college. busy unpacking, chit chatting , eating non stop and much more. studying! *phewwww* that's a different story okeyh! i'm really scared about next semester. let me list down the subjects just incase anyone forgot. there are eight (1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8 ) subjects. four (1, 2, 3 , 4) are accounting subjects regardless whether it is financial or management accounting. there will be 2 english* i am praying real hard we will not get our last semester's lecturer* . one subject on LAW and another one concerning entrepreneurship. just thinking about it, give me shivers and nightmares.

i just wish that my life will find its way back to the simplicity-hood. i wonder when will that be.
oh yes, a few weeks back, i applied as an international student for university of new south wales. it was just out of curiosity and fun. two days ago, i received the whole international student guide. the letter came in with the university's logo and stuff. it's nothing big because, anyone can apply for that thing. the thing is, when that thing came, i think it sort of stunned my dad and my mom. they know i've been wanting it since forever but they did not know i was this serious. i am. BUT, now, thinking about it, i am really scared actually. i can stay if i want to kan. my dad will be really happy. ahaha. if i really wanna go, i have to find my own scholarships. i have to really think this time around.

apart from all of that, he came back actually. *u miss me is it?* hahahaha. i got my magic word for three times. but , i'm not gonna fall for it this time around. i will think it through this time around, for real . i need you to prove it that you are actually worth my time.

//am i anything to u?
//yes of coz.

counting down the days.

i know it's a bit too early for me to be posting this chap's picture but i can't help it because i've gotten Edward Cullen'c curse and i am trying my best to resist it and this is the solution.
haha.
no one can ever replace my ashton kutcher.

i had fun last night. we had a barbecue as to remind us that holidays are about to end and we must go back to our respective colleges and universities and start the sucky life soon.
nana will the first one leaving on the 21st of december and that follows with everyone else.
this means that there will be no more stupid meaningless jokes, no more reckless driving and shouting in the car, no more quarelling with my mom for going out every single day, no more waiting outside anybody's house, no more honking aimlessly. haha.
now that i have realised, i will have to wait for another year, to experience all this.
because, we don't have normal holidays like other people.
that's why i treasure holidays so much...
thank you girls for making this holiday fun , exciting and SO ADVENTUROUS!
haha. that's a bit over the top but you get the picture right.
i will post last night's pictures once i get it.

back to basics.

Alhamdulillah. i got my results and i passed every paper. i wouldn't say i passed with flying colours but at least i made it through. all i wanted was to pass my papers and i got what i wanted and i aint complaining. my mom said i was so kelam kabut . cant help it. if i flunk my papers, she will be the one worrying and all. haha.

many things have i learned after being a student of a university. it is not something that you can pick up from a book store or a library. you have to actually experience it, in order to get the hang of it. here's a list of things that i have actually learned over the past one and a half years.

1. don't mess with the pak guard. haha. they have the power!
2. wear appropriate attire so that you don't attract the wrong attention.
3. if you want something badly, go for it.
4. pile up stocks of nescafes. you will need it, sooner or later.
5. if you see a gorgeous looking guy, just go say hi. chances are ,you will not see him again. hahaha.
6. find friends that are from the same kind but mix around with everyone.
7. go out, go shopping, watch a movie, de-stress yourself even when you are not stress.
8. even when you are 20 years old, or even 55 years old, you will still need your parents.
9. i seriously need to plan my financials properly. haha
10. lastly, if you want good grades, nothing much you can do except for study. those who excel and say that they don't study are liars. we all have been there and done it before. if you study, usually your hard work will pay off and the other way round.

but, all you need to remember is that, life is like a wheel*is it a wheel? or anything bulat la like a ball* sometimes you can be up there, and sometimes, you are at the bottom. the figures are not the only way to measure you. perhaps one did not do well for his or her finals but understands the whole thing perfectly. who knows?

now, i need to figure out how will my 2009 be like. i am so scared thinking about the future.

one more thing before i go off, accounting is hard. don't think it is some kind of a loser's field. just because it is not something in the science stream, doesnt mean it is easy. i would like those saying , to venture into the subject first, then i will allow you to have a say about the actual subject.

just a wild thought.

"numbers are funny. they can measure you, time you, analyze you all they want but they all know what really matters , it's how you play the game. Have you heard the expression they can't measure the heart, well the truth is , they can't measure any of it. Heart, want and need. And you can't measure a dream." nathan scott , season 6 : episode 12.

so come again, why do we live by the measurement of numbers?

and ohh, all of this is killing me and i am not excitedly anticipating any kind of figures right now.

hours away

the cutest little couple!

good day everyone!

it is 2.43pm and i still haven't had lunch. i am very hungry and i feel like eating spicy drummets but we don't have the inventory at home. hahaha. inventory. a very common word that i will see in about 2 weeks time. yucks. one think led to another, the word results popped in my head! i'm asking you guys ,my fellow fast track friends and others. answer me with honesty pls. if dapat 3.00 that's good enough right? if dapat more, alhamdullilah but if tak, we'll try again with more effort.

i don't have any specific plans for today because my mom's back and she doesnt like it that i go out too often. last night, nana caught me doing something fishy. hahaha. that was really funny. sorry nana.

my body is aching today from all the bruises i've been getting.
for instance, 1. i've got a bisul on my right knee and it's very painful.
2. 2 nights ago, i wanted to bite my sister's hand and while she was trying to protect helself from me , she knocked my head with her elbow. haha. skrg ni ade benjol.
3. my constant headache that doesnt wanna go away.
4. i'm hungry and my stomach is hurting.

byk x saket? the worst is the bisul. i cant even pray properly.

uh, i am surprised about how happy i am nowadays after things has settled down. knowing that it is not my fault, i am much much more happier. i should hv thrown away all the negativity long long ago. i've moved on. and for that, i thank you, God.

gdluck everyone for tmoro.