before i enter into my sleeping mode.

my sleeping mode-that is, is during BEL, Pn Ainur's class. haha.

its raining badly in kedah now, and mostly everywhere, there's flood. i pity those who has to be evacuated from their house to the relief center. it's fasting month. imagine how tiring they are and not to mention, losing your stuff can be really devestating. hmm.

i had a TAX quiz just now, kinda hard. haha but sebab bermuafakat dan bekerjasama sesama insan during Ramadhan ni, things are less harder. hehe. i think Pn Ros saw the whole scene but ignored it because, its just a quiz.

i'm hungry. having a slice of bread now will be good. with my mom's stew. GOSH. that's really nice. i just saw a pic of nahla, halle berry's baby. she's ok. you can acually see the fusionness. hehe. but the father of the baby, Gabriel Aubry, uhhuh, is hunkylicious. haha!

since sahur is around 5am, its kinda tiring to wake up at 5 eat a bit, then wait for Subuh to pray then sleep again. tiring dont you think? but since we're only doing it for a month, what's there to complain about. more excuses to sleep in class, yey!

ps: K is an initial i gave , specially for him. you know, when YOU use it as well, its like you're stealing him from me . i am over him now,yes, but you dont have to publicly publish that you're having something going on with him. i hate this topic. when it comes to this topic, i turn into this BITCH that i dont like. hmm. whatever, thank you friend.

collection for life.

i want this so badly!

one thing they have in common if you can tell is, Hilary Erhard Duff is the cover girl. haha. i have more and more of these in Sh Alam. easier to get them in KL. years and years of collecting these, i think i should stop my obsession now but i dont think i can. i love magazines too much to let them go and of course, i love hilary duff. i think i used to have more than these laaa but my brothers love to read them and hide them everywhere. i cant find them. i love it when hilary is on the cover of seventeen magazine. we, the fans will get the whole photoshoot pictures, in order.

one magazine that i wanted so badly, i searched the whole of Malaysia i think, was the Valentines issue in February 2006 ,which featured Hilary and ex-beau,Joel Madden. i went to MPH, Popular, Borders, and mini bookstores just to find it and i failed. it was few months after the shoot that they broke up. haha. back then, my pocket money was around 150 per month, but somehow, i managed to get all of these. some of them cost me a fortune. for instance, hilary was on the cover for Cosmopolitan-the magazine is in Sh Alam, it cost me RM 30, i mean just for a magazine, it is a lot. for the life issue, it was almost RM 45. My cousin, Elisha bought me Hilary Duff All Access Pass which cost her RM 60. its like buying the accounting text book but it is more attractive! haha. these are just a tiny weeny part of my Hilary collection. one time, i asked my cousin to buy Most Wanted Collectors Edition which was around RM 100. its just the same as the normal cds but the satisfaction of getting something so rare is priceless. hehe. not to mention, my aunt gave me With Love, a perfume made by Hilary Duff , which i should mention, is really nice, as a present when i went to visit her in Houston. she went to a hilary concert without knowing any of the songs, haha, cause they got free tickets, still, they bought me heaps of stuff. a hilary duff bag, a tee, and a tour book. they really support me. hehe. love u , mak gee and
did i say thank you very much? THANK YOU.

when you see her in person, the moment she comes out looking really beautiful and that will make you go speechlesss and then, she said thank you for supporting her ,thats when you know all your efforts are really worth it.
the tip of the iceberg!

i'm not crazy aren't i? i'm just really passionate about things i love.

full house

good day everyone,

so. i am now all geared up with my so called new resolution .i wanna talk about real stuff that's been bothering me other than the other half of human nature, men.the topic for today, will be friends.for quite a while, i've been having this thing.if you call someone your bestfriend, there are a few of things you can actually do to keep the friendship going right?such as pick up the phone and dial her number, send a few text messages, share problems or stories, meet up once in a while, when you're in your hometown the least you can do is find her, wish her on certain occasions. yeah. lots of things that can be done. its a two-way-relationship.its just the basic of friendship. a few of you would know, perhaps. i'm not gonna reveal anything here. i'm just saying. another friend said the exact same thing about her bestfriend.you guys labelled us your bestfriends but you don't do the things that a regular friend should, let alone calling us bestfriends.i've been dealing with these since i was in secondary school. why am i complaining now right? its because, everyday, i had this high hope that things will change. few years down the road and still, its the same.

ps: can u take me away from the computer?

i've been a bitch these past few days when i sit in front of a computer.

its like i'm letting it out through the wrong output.

i'm sorry people.

resolution sept 08

i should be more aware of the world. whats going on with the real world out there. i wanna be less selfish. i wanna study hard. i wanna give my life a more meaningful meaning. i wanna be more interested in other things. i'll keep my head focus. no more arguing about tedious things.i'll stick to my promise. i'll be more cleaner. i'll eat less and healthily.i'll block my mind from any interuption. i'll be more realistic that i'm here in Malaysia, and not in the US and in the near future, i wont be in the US until i work my ass off , i'm still here. i wont let my past encounter with my fears slow me down, i will march upward with no turning back. yeah one more thing, i'll keep my eyes open for that lad. haha. no more crap jasmin anis by noor allam.

she said....

today is my first day at home for the fasting month. i cleaned up the house, cooked for buka puasa a bit, made a desert, picked up my mom at the airport and went to the bazaar ramadhan. it is such a relieve to be back at home. its drizzling out there. i like it when it is sunny in Alorstar. easier to move around. i'm all alone this time around with no mates whatsoever. only sarah is here. and of course, K. not that it matters much.

yesterday, we had a celebration for my cousin, Elisha. it was her 19th birthday . happy birthday my sweetheart! so we had the birthday eating ceremony during break fast time. the food was GREAT. everything was super spicy and it was gooooood. especially the asam pedas. ok. its a bit tooo much. hehe. the cupcakes were cute and she got it from an anonymous. hmm. a little mystery there. hehe

we were talking before maghrib time and we were discussing stuff. i said to her that my mind is not here and she said her's is not here as well. its in the US. amazing isnt it what some place can do to u and the effects of it. since i came back from the avril's concert all i could think of ' how great and fun would it be if i could be working backstage in a concert' i know it must be just some daydreaming matter but if one day i could pull off a show, that will be an accomplishment. now, im really really confused. she said that it happens, she does think about other things other than medicine but the main thing here was the question that she asked me." would i be happy if i were doing it for a local artist?" it was a bit tricky but the answer was easy, no. i wouldnt be as estatic as i would be covering for a hollywood popstar if i were doing it locally. the problem is, the scene here is kinda disturbing. bile melayu buat, mcm lupe diri but when the western does it, its ok. thats their lifestyle. then, she said that later on, you'd know that the things that you are majouring now is what you actually want to do . i really hope she's right. probably , the signs that i really wanna do accounting will come up later in life. my mom said that education shouldnt stop, that i can still pursue my journalism when i'm done with my accounting degree. i would love to do it if i have 100 years more to live. haha. i love to write but that's the thing, i dont really write that well. my vocab is really weak. and now, grammar dah tunggang terbalik. i just wanna know, how would one know that what they have chosen now is the best for them? you'd never know right?

i'm only 19 and still trying to figure out what is it life's all about. but the thought of being an accountant makes me feel kinda smart. all the figures and stuff but at the end of the day, it all comes down whether you are happy or not. i may be happy with a lot if money. yeah my plans for now is trying to save up money. so that i can spend later. i wanna open up whatever it is that'll make me happy. i am happy but i dont feel complete. i'm doing too much of thinking kan.

and i'd end up making myself confused and all tangled up . but thats who i am. a person with so many thoughts . sometimes, it is useless but most of the time, it can be a bit too too much.when you are not doing things that you're supposed to , this is what happened. i shold be sleeping or at least, studying a bit. hahaha. studying doesnt really work when you're at home, chilling and lepaking.

muslim all around the world

minutes to berbuka puasa,

selamat berbuka everyone.
hope you guys will have a good meal like i do. hehe

loves,
jasmin.

u're my mess, lucas.

as soon as i reached home at around 4AM i watched one tree hill season 6 premiere on youtube. it is such a dissapointment!!!! they could have done it so much better. now its all dramatic and black. peyton and lucas is doing okkkaay not like GREAT.... brooke's in trouble with her fashion line and everything else is well, falling apart. i personally think its just wrong for lucas and peyton to even think of eloping to vegas. they are the IT couple in tree hill and by that, they should know everyone supports them. ni nak kawen kat vegas plak. its like kte kawen kat siam. hahaha. peyton is looking more beautiful by the second while lucas is not. brroke is pretty but i prefer her with long hair and jamie is so cuteeee! geram nyee. xpuas tgk one tree hill mcm ni laaa!

feels good to be back at home though the house is such a mess. its the real mess unlike lucas scott's mess. ahahhaha.

when we dream..........

.................we dont need reasons.

it is so true.

but that is when we are dreaming, i am not now.
reasons are required in life.

when i write, i have my own reasons for doing so
it can either be because,

i'm down,i'm brokenhearted,i'm sad, i'm miserable,im crazy,i'm lost.

for the ones who would understand.

I had too much caring for the world.
It was too much at one time.
All I needed was some attention, an assurance that I was loved, by whomever.
I cared about you, as you were very much part of my life.
Seeing you everyday, became the highlighted event of my day.
Talking to you back then, felt as if like you were the only one who can understand me.
More of the opposite of me you were.
I talked too much and you listened.
I was more friendly than you will ever be but somehow you are more witty than me.
You were always on top and I tried my best to follow your trail.
More or less, I did follow you but more on the wild side.
I led you to some crazy mess but you didn’t care because we had fun.
We laughed, cried, talked, gossiped, more than any girl should.
I do worry sometimes that one day, somebody will take you away from me but since you’d always find your path back to me, I kept quiet.
Now, time passes by faster than ever, we are growing up, turning into humans in the real world.
Probably you wouldn’t even notice that I’m actually talking about a person whom I love very much indeed, that at any particular time of a day, I’d take a bullet for her.
Will she protect me and do the same? I don’t think so.
Maybe I’m wrong.
Prove me wrong once and show me you care.
Much can be done to show me that you do see me as someone you really, deeply care.
Enough to make me feel important in your busy life.
There are such things as karma and the world do actually go round.
Mind you, we lead the same life, forecasting the same kind of future.
Out of everyone else in this universe, I should understand you better.
All I’m saying now is ,all this while I made too much effort to keep this thing going and feels like it’s going nowhere.
Sooner or later you’ll be gone, miles miles away.
I should be getting used to this by now.
I don’t wanna get used to it.
I don’t.
Again.
Prove me wrong and surprise me, Princess.
Make up for the time we lost before we’re too old to even remember each other’s nick name.

if i am able to write something and turn it into a poem or rather a close one,

one would know done well, how affected i am.

this has been an issue for me for a while and i'm regretting every minute of it.

some time off.

soooo, i did not update my blog for a while since i'm back in melati.

little little updates:

i saw my eye candy yesterday and he is so good looking with his white shirt. hmm.

b's back. i really wonder why. nana said its because my pics with ali and abu.haha.

i dont sleep well nowadays. its like i'm having these weird dreams but it's not nightmares.
more like the things that i dont really think about but subconciously its at the back of my mind.

abdam is now botak and kinda scary. hahahah.

hilary duff's dad was in the jail for one day. pity her.

i had a marathon of private practice and hell, it was really really good!

i cant wait for one tree hill, season 6 and gossip girl,season 2!( peek-a-boo! peyton is with lucas.wohhhooooooooooo)

cant wait to posa and buke posa with my family in AS!

AVRIL LAVIGNE ROCKS! i feel like i betrayed my hilary duff when i was super excited when i saw avril. hahah. i know its nonsense but i did feel that.