today is my first day at home for the fasting month. i cleaned up the house, cooked for buka puasa a bit, made a desert, picked up my mom at the airport and went to the bazaar ramadhan. it is such a relieve to be back at home. its drizzling out there. i like it when it is sunny in Alorstar. easier to move around. i'm all alone this time around with no mates whatsoever. only sarah is here. and of course, K. not that it matters much.
yesterday, we had a celebration for my cousin, Elisha. it was her 19th birthday . happy birthday my sweetheart! so we had the birthday eating ceremony during break fast time. the food was GREAT. everything was super spicy and it was gooooood. especially the asam pedas. ok. its a bit tooo much. hehe. the cupcakes were cute and she got it from an anonymous. hmm. a little mystery there. hehe
we were talking before maghrib time and we were discussing stuff. i said to her that my mind is not here and she said her's is not here as well. its in the US. amazing isnt it what some place can do to u and the effects of it. since i came back from the avril's concert all i could think of ' how great and fun would it be if i could be working backstage in a concert' i know it must be just some daydreaming matter but if one day i could pull off a show, that will be an accomplishment. now, im really really confused. she said that it happens, she does think about other things other than medicine but the main thing here was the question that she asked me." would i be happy if i were doing it for a local artist?" it was a bit tricky but the answer was easy, no. i wouldnt be as estatic as i would be covering for a hollywood popstar if i were doing it locally. the problem is, the scene here is kinda disturbing. bile melayu buat, mcm lupe diri but when the western does it, its ok. thats their lifestyle. then, she said that later on, you'd know that the things that you are majouring now is what you actually want to do . i really hope she's right. probably , the signs that i really wanna do accounting will come up later in life. my mom said that education shouldnt stop, that i can still pursue my journalism when i'm done with my accounting degree. i would love to do it if i have 100 years more to live. haha. i love to write but that's the thing, i dont really write that well. my vocab is really weak. and now, grammar dah tunggang terbalik. i just wanna know, how would one know that what they have chosen now is the best for them? you'd never know right?
i'm only 19 and still trying to figure out what is it life's all about. but the thought of being an accountant makes me feel kinda smart. all the figures and stuff but at the end of the day, it all comes down whether you are happy or not. i may be happy with a lot if money. yeah my plans for now is trying to save up money. so that i can spend later. i wanna open up whatever it is that'll make me happy. i am happy but i dont feel complete. i'm doing too much of thinking kan.
yesterday, we had a celebration for my cousin, Elisha. it was her 19th birthday . happy birthday my sweetheart! so we had the birthday eating ceremony during break fast time. the food was GREAT. everything was super spicy and it was gooooood. especially the asam pedas. ok. its a bit tooo much. hehe. the cupcakes were cute and she got it from an anonymous. hmm. a little mystery there. hehe
we were talking before maghrib time and we were discussing stuff. i said to her that my mind is not here and she said her's is not here as well. its in the US. amazing isnt it what some place can do to u and the effects of it. since i came back from the avril's concert all i could think of ' how great and fun would it be if i could be working backstage in a concert' i know it must be just some daydreaming matter but if one day i could pull off a show, that will be an accomplishment. now, im really really confused. she said that it happens, she does think about other things other than medicine but the main thing here was the question that she asked me." would i be happy if i were doing it for a local artist?" it was a bit tricky but the answer was easy, no. i wouldnt be as estatic as i would be covering for a hollywood popstar if i were doing it locally. the problem is, the scene here is kinda disturbing. bile melayu buat, mcm lupe diri but when the western does it, its ok. thats their lifestyle. then, she said that later on, you'd know that the things that you are majouring now is what you actually want to do . i really hope she's right. probably , the signs that i really wanna do accounting will come up later in life. my mom said that education shouldnt stop, that i can still pursue my journalism when i'm done with my accounting degree. i would love to do it if i have 100 years more to live. haha. i love to write but that's the thing, i dont really write that well. my vocab is really weak. and now, grammar dah tunggang terbalik. i just wanna know, how would one know that what they have chosen now is the best for them? you'd never know right?
i'm only 19 and still trying to figure out what is it life's all about. but the thought of being an accountant makes me feel kinda smart. all the figures and stuff but at the end of the day, it all comes down whether you are happy or not. i may be happy with a lot if money. yeah my plans for now is trying to save up money. so that i can spend later. i wanna open up whatever it is that'll make me happy. i am happy but i dont feel complete. i'm doing too much of thinking kan.
and i'd end up making myself confused and all tangled up . but thats who i am. a person with so many thoughts . sometimes, it is useless but most of the time, it can be a bit too too much.when you are not doing things that you're supposed to , this is what happened. i shold be sleeping or at least, studying a bit. hahaha. studying doesnt really work when you're at home, chilling and lepaking.
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