We've been making decisions ever since we were born. We had to choose whether we wanted to drink Milo or Ribena. We had to choose whether we want to swim or to just play at the park. We had to choose whether we want the red bike or just be happy with your brother's old bicycle. We had to decide whether we want to jump or just stay put.
But why is it that making decisions have not turned into the easiest thing, even after you've done it, a million times?
Family will always be there when you decide on things, friends will support you no matter what, enemies await your final say and the rest will go on as it is.
Mom has always taught me to follow my instinct in making decisions, dad has always said, follow the rules and you'll be fine. Just that, most of the times, the move that you want to take is against the rules and the laws that has been laid right in front of you.
I'm not making any big decisions right now, Iam not flying off to anywhere, Iam not making the decision to marry anyone right now, I am not planning on buying big big things right now, Iam happy with whatever right now but I guess, you just know , when a big chunk of your heart went missing. And at that point, you have to decide whether you should go and chase the missing part of you or just stay put and let it come back to you, at the moment, that the missing part wishes to.
I'll follow my instinct right now and just let the missing part come back, at any convenient time for it, to come back. I haven't been studying lately. My mind keeps on delaying it. Work loads have been at the minimum amount. I don't know what is wrong but something is definitely wrong right now. ape cte ni kan. nevermind.
this is just for me to jot down things. i'm waiting for fafa right now. *yawning* haha.
ps : to keep quiet? is that your way of playing it safe? idk.
But why is it that making decisions have not turned into the easiest thing, even after you've done it, a million times?
Family will always be there when you decide on things, friends will support you no matter what, enemies await your final say and the rest will go on as it is.
Mom has always taught me to follow my instinct in making decisions, dad has always said, follow the rules and you'll be fine. Just that, most of the times, the move that you want to take is against the rules and the laws that has been laid right in front of you.
I'm not making any big decisions right now, Iam not flying off to anywhere, Iam not making the decision to marry anyone right now, I am not planning on buying big big things right now, Iam happy with whatever right now but I guess, you just know , when a big chunk of your heart went missing. And at that point, you have to decide whether you should go and chase the missing part of you or just stay put and let it come back to you, at the moment, that the missing part wishes to.
I'll follow my instinct right now and just let the missing part come back, at any convenient time for it, to come back. I haven't been studying lately. My mind keeps on delaying it. Work loads have been at the minimum amount. I don't know what is wrong but something is definitely wrong right now. ape cte ni kan. nevermind.
this is just for me to jot down things. i'm waiting for fafa right now. *yawning* haha.
ps : to keep quiet? is that your way of playing it safe? idk.
3 comments:
I like that your parents are the total opposite of each other. I must say, Mama is ethical. Papa is legal. But yes, you are right to follow your instinct. Let it be. It'll come back to you if it's meant to be. LOVE YOU
i'm not talking about you think you know what. i just want my modjo/spirit/whatever it is to come back and let me be myself peacefully. i want to study like usual but i cant. why eh?
Because you heart is upset about something and you have to let that pain go away. Until then, you won't be able to move on with your life. You have to take a deep breath and let it go. Some days in the future, you will sit down and think about it once more.
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