Big Flop.

I wanted to start off this post with a peribahasa, I don't know which one is suitable but the meaning that I have in mind is like "......... memakan diri sendiri," Make sense? It's okay, let me re-cap what I've written a while back. Remember that time when I said I asked my manager about the debit credit question? So, I suppose that was not a good thing. No, I don't suppose so, but now, I know so. I thought, by asking, then I can avoid any kind of mistakes because you see, this is real life problems with the firm's prestigous name on the line and this is not just for exam purposes. If it was for my financial accounting paper, trust me, I'd leave the questions alone but I can't do such things. Responsibility has been passed to me, I ought to the thing that I have been asked, properly. So, to ensure that I get it done, correctly, I asked. Yes, I do think that I asked stupid questions sometimes but I have learned to certain extent, you'd rather look stupid than to make mistakes, that might not or cannot be amended later.

Sounds like I am angry, or maybe not satisfied, perhaps I am but I know my own capabilities. I know that I don't know much. I know and that's why I am there with the post of a Vacation Trainee, not an Associate. I am there to learn and develop skills. Like I said, manage your expectations. AND, how do you know I'm not willing to learn? Big part of the reason why I wanted to venture into auditing was to actually learn. To learn and adapt but to learn with the audit firm, takes a lot of time and the seniors are always busy. For you to gather up your courage and ask them a simple question, might actually interupt them. Then, instead of being the eager VT that wants to learn, you are becoming this annoying VT that wants to know everything. So, any other way that you are in, you're caught. Told ya, it will memakan diri sendiri right? As it is, I am already 'segan' with my previous manager because she's so smart. Really smart. Aihhh. Overall, this internship experience has taught me one thing. "Why did you study for exam purposes Jasmin Anis binti Noor Allam?"

So, if you're reading this, my fellow juniors, don't ask stupid questions or act blur, or dumb. Just act like you know, BE SERIOUS and adapt. As for me, for the first two months, I had to adapt to the surroundings that pratically ignored my presence there. Like I said, they speak Chinese and I stood there, like a stool. Safe and unsound, for about 2 months, yes but what did I get in return, precious experience. I think it's with them that I learned a lot, quite a lot. I guess, you just have to adapt. 

Anyway, what I am trying to say in this post is, for the questions that I asked resulted a poor review on my technical knowledge but I do think I deserve it, parts of it. Haha. Whatever, let's wait for another review from another senior. Then, we'll take that one and give it to the lecturer tmoro. Haha :P


Ps : Serious font, for serious matter.