There was this one time, when I wanted something so badly. I really wanted it, I kept thinking about it and I know my life would be incomplete without me having it. So I kept it inside, I prayed slowly, asking God for clues and found it. I was going miserable thinking about it, and I think God knows how miserable I was then, that He gave it to me on the spot. How badly I wanted it, was beyond my personal understanding. I don't know why but I knew I wanted it and when I actually found it, then I understood the reason behind it.
Now, I wonder why were things so hard between us? Is God testing me to see how badly I wanted 'it', or just to tell me that things are not meant to be? I reckon its the latter one. I mean, I used to think that its the former one but now, I guess, it's the latter one. I have got to get my feet firmly on the ground. *slowly bringing it down to earth. Yea, it's on earth now*
What I'm trying to say is, when I want something, usually I will get it when I want it with passion but i sincerely thought I was passionated enough, no? Haha now I'm just a confused kid. Its gonna be that time of the month now, so yeah, all sorts of questions are popping up. Friends graduating, friends getting married, friends having kids (okay, not yet but if you're married, it's gotta be soon right?). Probably I'm just overwhelmed with the current events in life.
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