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One of those nights where I feel the need to create a line or two, be it right or wrong. Weather seems so chilly these past two days, the air-con controller can be chucked aside, comforter seems like the best hiding place. Strolling around town with the windows down, one might have thought we're in London for a second, especially when the car passed by the mini I-City in front of Masjid Zahir. Life seems so easy in Alor Setar but literally, it is easy. 

Growing up, I have always had both my parents at home, all the time. Since both of my parents are academicians, its rare for them to be working at night. So basically, they are at home by 4pm. During my primary years, my siblings and I took the bus to go to school and when we entered into our secondary schools, my mother will send us to school and my father will pick us up, occasionally but mostly, my mother will pick us up. In the evening, we will be sent for our Quran classes, every single day and at night, time will be spent at the tuition centers. In between, we will go for swimming lessons, movies, hang outs and more. 

It was not easy but it is sufficient for my growing up needs. From what I remembered, I had great memories because my parents were always around to teach me how to read when I was 4 years old, to wash my plates when I was 5 years old, to sweep the floor when I was 6 years old, to take care of my little sister when I was 7 years old, to lock the house when I was 8 years old, to start praying properly when I was 9 years old, to start fasting when I was 10 years old, to play badminton when I was 11 years old, to study hard when I was 12 years old, to behave when I was 13 years old, to not follow the wrong set of friends when I was 14 years old, to not get attached to a boy when I was 15 years old, to not go against your own parents when I was 16 years old and to choose the right path for my career at 17 years old. 

Those are some of the things that I can remember vividly. Mom has always asked me to be careful when it comes to mingling with boys, extra reminder to not be attached to a guy at a very young age and every time I am close to a guy, those words will come banging in my head. Yes Mom. I wish my parents would have told me the significance of praying daily, rather than asking us to do so and punishing us with a belt when we did not because to understand something and to do it seems more reasonable rather than to do it without knowing why. Its those little things that get stuck in your head, for a longer time. Of course, now we all know why.

A normal conversation between my friends and I will always stumble upon whether do we want to settle in Kedah for good when the right time comes? To be honest, I do but with all these visions and missions(WOW!) that I have in life, it seems unfair for me to discount them when I make those decisions. At the end of the day, it is my life but I want to be able to be there for my future kids later, just how my parents have always been there for me through thick and thin, throughout my stupidest decisions and the wise ones. 

Conclusion of this post is... Haha.. I wish I could just stay here because life is simple here but there's nothing much to be offered here other than the food is much more cheaper here, houses are of course, cheaper, but at the end of the day, it is your life, your say. Pretty much, you have to choose the life that will make you happy or at least, not miserable. If you're happy single, so be it. If you're happy being a workaholic, then be it. If you're happy going out with a married guy, so be it. If you're happy with 10 kids, so be it. If you're happy riding a motorcycle, then be it. 

It's 1.25am, I am still deciding whether I should perform that endoscopy procedure or not. Honestly, life here feels right.