Mental war.

“Do not regret a war that has matured you.”

Mental and emotional war that I have been facing with my surroundings. Its a tougher war when you're facing with your own demon self. When your heart says A and your head says B. When your right hand goes to the right side and your left hand goes the other way. When your body can only take so much and your brain keeps on pushing because its all a mental game. 

I used to love coming home, for a short nap, for a spring clean and for a nice bath but now, it feels like I prefer to be out for odd reasons. Even breathing at home, feels like a crime right now. Wishing that I can just drop everything and go off for a holiday, but I remember that with age, comes responsibility.