leaving all the misery behind.

just when i thought my week could not get any worse, the bad news came.

here i am in melati alone. i am among the last one to leave this place but i am actually loving the quietness. haha. i miss my friends already, though. i slept over at mysara's last night * sorry fali for leaving you alone last night. hehe* aliyah wanted 'breaking dawn' so badly last night but somehow i've got this feeling that she'll be dissapointed like i was earlier. nvrmind. let her read it first. anyways, i've got lots of time to kill since my bus is at 12.15am. the bags are all packed and ready! haha.

something woke me up today. i'll take it as a bad news but i know there's a reason behind it. perhaps she's not ready and perhaps she wasn't meant to leave,not just yet. i dont know which one but i am worried. just so you know, i will always be there for you, no matter what.

another matter here, i wanna make peace with someone but i dont know how to approach that someone. i can't say it out loud, i just can't. having to spend another 3 years here, it would be helpful if i were to get along with everyone. each and everyone here. it would be embarrasing to admit defeat when i don't even have the intention to enter into a competition,but it's not like i am left with any choice here. lots of thoughts have been considered. why am i feeling all this when all she did was took a portion of something that was never mine? it was never mine and i know it will never be. she can have it all, more or less. i am willing to create a way for them. i know this is all weird but having to go through all this madness in another 3 years would be unbearable. how can i stop thinking about it when i know i will be seeing that person every single day of my life? the least i can do is give them some blessings, i guess. here, you got my blessings.

oh yess, the holidays are in! think people think! what are we gonna do for the next 7 days!! i have a bel presentation that needs to be prepared. TMI that is. mr YAY's company. haha. i am now worried about my rihanna tickets because at this moment, only 100 tickets left. what if i don't get it??! i really wanna go. haih, i better go now. i want to sleep. tata!