Click it like you mean it.

Sometimes, I click a link without thinking, like I just did. I clicked the 'Open all' link from the history and all the recent links popped up. I am so used to that. I do things without thinking. Sometimes with just a mere thought, sometimes with too much thoughts of it, and most of the times, without none of it. Perhaps, I am immune to it. It, being anything available at the moment. Random, I know. Lately, time has been moving so slowly. If you ask me three months back, every thing happened in a blink of an eye but now, it seems like God wants me to enjoy every moment of every single thing. He wants me to breathe the air with passion and let it go, freely. I am, taking every moment into consideration, but of course, most of time, without thinking. I just think about the moment, the fun I can suck out of it but seldom about the consequences. When I lay things on the invisible ground I created, I can see all the things I don't want in life clearly, but I can hardly see the things that I want in life anymore. I am a girl with so many dreams and wants in life, I used to be a girl with so many wants and dreams in life but now, I feel like all the dreams and wants are hanging on a cliff and I am ready to let it go at any second now. Give me a pen and a piece of paper, let me list down all my needs and wants in life but, I will just write it down for the sake of writing it down and not because I really want them. Anymore. Three months back, I will give you a definite plan when I am down with my Degree. Leave everything behind, go to US, take a bus to Nashville, go see Taylor Swift's management and ask for any kind of vacancy on her tour ( I swear this was a definite plan), work with Starbucks, let loose for a month or two, make myself happy even if that means I have to use all my savings. That was the plan but now, the plan needs to be reconstructed and I need to figure things out. God, this sounds so serious. I know. Probably because the environment that I am in right now. Right now. Maybe ( I hope so ) when I leave all of this serious environment, I will be in  my jolly mindset again.

But, oh come on, nothing is so serious now. I am easily amazed with life. Just that right now, I have no definite plan to fall back on to. Everything and everyone is moving forward. I don't wanna be kept in the past, even if I am. I am slowly catching up and I am slowly bringing the past forward, to the future. I will.

Ps : I am going to Justin Bieber this Thursday. How serious can I be?