comfirmation.

i needed to assure myself that the 30 percent is now gone. so i had a little experimento.

i went to see the main variables to make sure. it was a mistake because the experiment went wrong .i should have let my feelings ( radas and alat) stay aside.let it heal itself. so now, i dont know wether i can sleep happily or not because i'm really pissed (post -action) . he acted nonchalantly, while talking to me, and now i feel like slapping him, right on the face. i know i'll be fine, if he's dead. i'll be thoroughly happy. i can concentrate , AT LEAST. i hate this feeling. i know i know. if he doesnt care why should i, right? its because i care. the best thing was, i didn't feel excited when i was meeting him. i take that as a yes, that i dont have anymore feelings towards him.CEMUIH. the word to describe how tired i am of this topic. ok. from now on, move on. see, i need to learn how to move on quickly.

puteri, we need new man.hahaha.

so , as a conclusion and a comfirmation from this experiment, i think my feelings have dissapeared. he became one of those people who disgust me from far.i don't mind talking about bulan but i feel ashamed to talk about K. thank you. i hope che mah che man will give me an A for this experiment because i learn A LOT from her during my sleeping time , i mean chemistry lesson during form 5. haha. and the hypothesis for this experiment from the beggining matches the result at the ending. it is how it should have been earlier.