here's a thought, when do u know that u have made a right decision?
how do u even differentiate between the right and the wrong.
my mom has always taught me to go with your instinct and right at this particular moment, my instinct is telling me to go study and not think about anything else. haha.
anyway, how do u really know?
my life has always been on the right track even when i was a little child.
my mom nurtured me with good values and the important things like, cleaning up, mopping, vacuuming, laundry and stuff. thats a very important lesson in life as u go along and when u're living on your own. she allows me to go out even though when i was much younger , we don't really see eye to eye on things like how i choose my friends, how i divide my time on studies and tvs, and how i used to not pray and how she nagged about it. haha.
* my mom just called. mama mama*
i can still remember vividly her exact face when i told her i went out with Bulan for the first time.
hahahaha. her expressions was priceless.
at that time, i bet she thought that i would tell her before i went out on my first date.
hell no, i bet she'd say no and she'd make a big fuss out of it. haha
i'll get teased like now!
so, how do i know i've made the right decisions?
certain actions i took left me with its own consequences.
for instance, i did not study for my MYOB's exam and now i have no certificate like everyone else. was i dissapointed with my own actions? YES.
i cant complain much about it though.
i did things to make me feel happy at that moment without thinking about my happiness later!
i just need to know now, how do u define the rights and the wrongs.
i feel like my world doesnt feel right , right now.
something is missing but i cant find the missing piece. t
i know i used to say that i'll be happy if i can study abroad but i am pausing any thoughts
of going because how can i ever be sure that i'll be happy there??
i've been away from a month but will i survive if it is 2 months?
my mom calls me at least 3 times a day, can i make it through the day without her checking on me?
i am so unsure about my life right now or perhaps this is just the exams blues talking.
either way, i need to find my source of unhappiness.
u do make me happy and u make me feel comfortable.
u make me feel stable and i think i need to get out from my comfortable zone
and stable state.
i need to find excitement.
u provide me stability, not excitement.
hambar.
how do u even differentiate between the right and the wrong.
my mom has always taught me to go with your instinct and right at this particular moment, my instinct is telling me to go study and not think about anything else. haha.
anyway, how do u really know?
my life has always been on the right track even when i was a little child.
my mom nurtured me with good values and the important things like, cleaning up, mopping, vacuuming, laundry and stuff. thats a very important lesson in life as u go along and when u're living on your own. she allows me to go out even though when i was much younger , we don't really see eye to eye on things like how i choose my friends, how i divide my time on studies and tvs, and how i used to not pray and how she nagged about it. haha.
* my mom just called. mama mama*
i can still remember vividly her exact face when i told her i went out with Bulan for the first time.
hahahaha. her expressions was priceless.
at that time, i bet she thought that i would tell her before i went out on my first date.
hell no, i bet she'd say no and she'd make a big fuss out of it. haha
i'll get teased like now!
so, how do i know i've made the right decisions?
certain actions i took left me with its own consequences.
for instance, i did not study for my MYOB's exam and now i have no certificate like everyone else. was i dissapointed with my own actions? YES.
i cant complain much about it though.
i did things to make me feel happy at that moment without thinking about my happiness later!
i just need to know now, how do u define the rights and the wrongs.
i feel like my world doesnt feel right , right now.
something is missing but i cant find the missing piece. t
i know i used to say that i'll be happy if i can study abroad but i am pausing any thoughts
of going because how can i ever be sure that i'll be happy there??
i've been away from a month but will i survive if it is 2 months?
my mom calls me at least 3 times a day, can i make it through the day without her checking on me?
i am so unsure about my life right now or perhaps this is just the exams blues talking.
either way, i need to find my source of unhappiness.
u do make me happy and u make me feel comfortable.
u make me feel stable and i think i need to get out from my comfortable zone
and stable state.
i need to find excitement.
u provide me stability, not excitement.
hambar.
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