Raya is Raya.

I seriously don't know whether it is just me or everyone else feels the same, or there's been a bug/virus buzzing around but I noticed that no one is excited for Hari Raya, or maybe it's just me? I do not feel anything for this upcoming event that is supposed to be the most awaited event of all times, as it involves food, family and the utmost important thing, duit raya. I heard everyone saying that they do not have baju raya yet, the main baju kurung that is. Let alone going shopping for the rest of the raya attire. Jeans, shoes, handbags and evrything else. Mom has said that there will be no allowance for shopping this year. I wonder why but one thing for sure is that, I don't see any of my siblings complaining. So what is it? Have we grown out of the Hari Raya spirit? I don't know. It's only a week away from the big day but it seems that they are not really that many houses that has put up the lights. Raya used to mean a lot. Perhaps it still does but it used to be more cheerful and a lot more fun when we were kids.

I really need to get my self together now and start acting like a human being rather than let myself end up like a heartless clown. I should start now. I will. But tonite, I will still let Bubble Spinner take charge of who I am. Haha.

ps : I remember last raya. I was strolling around Gurney Plaza looking for a birthday present but I ended up with nothing, like I always do. But in return, I got a great memory out of it ;) Another memory that will not be discarded easily coz it doesn't seem to fade, not anytime soon.